… as I address that which strangles my lightness and peace.
These were life-sized experiences and bore down upon me with their true weight.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke, The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge
Let me paraphrase, if I may:
These are life-sized realizations that re-align my internal universe with their gravitational scale.
I have been writing this past month. Driven by uncanny realizations of the interconnectedness of mind, body and emotional trauma, it is much to process and daunting to structure. Scattered words and thoughts swarm ’round the nebulous truth I have found as it materializes and consolidates. I arrive now at the end of the cycle and begin to shape action from philosophy, and will share a coherent account soon.